Yesterday went to party world wif Daphne and Jaclyn. Feels like sooo long time nvr spend time wif dem. But really enjoyed myself when i'm wif dem. I'm so afraid of loneliness now. Wah!! yesterday I was really damn lucky! cos i can hear Daphne sing!! For the first time! And she's so good wif cantonese songs loh but everytime she dun sing. hee.. Found out a great song from her yesterday: Si Xin Bu Gai by Twins & Boyz! dat song is juz superb!! Love it so much! After party World i dun feel like going home. Dunno why, i felt so bad cos i reali dun wish to go home sometimes. I felt very sad whenever i go home. Sometimes i juz wan 2keep my mind occupied wif things so dat i wouldn't feel so lonely. I'm very afraid of making Kiyo worried for me cos i keep having mood swings. He's been very understanding and i really felt bad bout it.
Later got National team training. Looking forward to it though. Wasn't very happy wif my past performance recently because i couldn't train enuf and everything i do doesn't seem to work. Feels so lost at times.
Actually i felt very pressurized in the team. Alwaz doesn't seem to be doing enuf and my ability to pick up something new is very slow. Although dis time going to Japan for training but i'm so afraid the sensei's will be so disappointed wif my level. Argh! Sometimes i'm so pressurised i feel like letting out a good scream! ROAR!! oops..
Twin & Boyz song:
//mummy where are you? @1:34 PM





